Sorry I haven't written a whole lot lately. I've been kind of out of it since I had the flu a few weeks ago. Plus with Christmas approaching way too quickly, it has left my head spinning. I actually haven't spent a lot of time on the computer. But I've missed posting and reading comments and other people's blogs.

This year I am not really into the whole "Christmas Spirit". I'm not sure what it is this year, but it doesn't feel like Christmas should be here in less than two weeks. I haven't written one Christmas card this year, gifts that should have been shipped at least a week ago haven't even been purchased yet, I certainly haven't felt very "cheery", in fact I've been in a rather deep slump. I found myself the other night wandering around the mall watching people scurry about gathering gifts and cards and wrapping paper. I remember thinking to myself, "Why do we do this to ourselves???" I mean, why do we stress ourselves out trying to find the "perfect gift" for someone we barely speak to (and why do we feel guilty when we don't buy them a thing)?

Perhaps I am a little "Bah, humbug" because other than my hubby and daughter, we really have no family here and I suppose that is what I am missing the most. We have a few friends here, but this year it's like a huge void is overwhelming me. Perhaps I am feeling a bit sorry for myself or is it that I am so sick and tired of Christmas becoming so commercialized that it is literally making me feel sick to my stomach. I mean, this year the stores were playing Christmas carols the day after Halloween. It's just wrong. We've totally lost the whole point. We've become so concerned with mailing things out by a particular deadline that we've forgotten the whole reason why we celebrate the season to begin with.

Now I know there are a few of you out there who do read my blog who are not Christian. And the point of my blog is not to be religious in nature, but I really must say this because I am hoping by getting it out, it will help me to climb out of this funk and really remember why I am looking forward to the season of Christmas. So please bear with me as I just need to get this out. The world looks for peace which seems to be missing from our daily life and stresses. But that "peace" is still right where He's always been. He's never left us, we've left Him. We have been so busy worrying about ourselves and buying that perfect gift that we have forgotten that Christ is the perfect gift. We really don't need anything more. People have been asking me what I want for Christmas this year and I have really been at a loss for words. I look around my home and I honestly don't need anything. Everything I need is right here surrounding me. But yet I feel as though something is missing. I suppose that something is Christ. I've pushed Him so far away that, like the world, I have been looking for something else.

Well, now that leaves me in something of a quandry. Where do I go now? Back to the manger. Back where I should have been the whole time. Thanks for being patient with this post. I promise I will return to my regular stuff tomorrow...I just really needed to get this out.